life.

b33rpr3ssur3

i aint in this for money or fame but if i stack a little change
fuuuck it i wont complain.

sleeepy.
gail platt. does she realise she's in coronation street? i really don't think so, she thinks it's real life, the camera's are just there becuase her life is in fact, so deeply, traumatisingly dramatic.

laughable, though.

watching the missing people's channel
hahah why you all dissapearred for
come home

hellisforheroes

'once you're in higher education..there's gloom on the horizon'

Not fitting into evans size catagory range, bingo.

Completely burning up here, think i've finally gone mental
that or this hangover brewing's gunna be worst to date.

4:52 w000 luffin lyf.

Sooooo prick
sleep's chatting shit, thought it promised me that if I got fucking wasted-sleep would knock me out.
obviously not
got tooth ache aswel- what did I even do
not even caring
how can one fucking self go for 3 whole nights and days without any sleep and not feel tired? I can't ween myself off these fuckignz[phyophjhgijhkghjfkghjg bla bla whatever the sleeping things called
such a lovely sleep when on them- absolute perfection. plus sleepy all the next day- I couldn't think of any more love in life, do people really posess this? well i know, yes they do, god my mind must be jam packed full of fucking shit
never ever stops going- tryna kill me off i'm thinking
sure someone gets so little sleep that the body is ill?
i dunno, uuurghh i'm gunna go read
night
morning
if i haven't slept by at least 10 again, i'm gwanin 3 of the fucking zydon sleeping pills- pure heaven, absolute fucking treat. like a black man with rape. or a white whore with crack.
fuck what
errrrrr
tooth ache
going mental
gunna be living off these forever
when did it get this bad?!
nope, it's fine
morning! 5am you fucking prick.

4am- I recognise you! you bastard..

ughh come on sleep, welcome me with open arms
beaaming headache
sat in the darkness for an hour but did sleep rescue me, nononooo
i can tell bodies tired
just not my mind
come on
go sleeeep
sleeeep
zzzzzZzZzZZZZzzzzz
watched 3am jeremy kyle-but had already seen it, say's alot
reminiscing about nothing, just sleepless, mind incarcerated in thoughts of everything and anything
absolute nonsense
could toot myself downstairs but i can't risk the awakening of the small hound, snoozing away with no worries apart from when the next walk is. wish i could get as excited about a walk..or dinner..or a toy hog
ohh how to be a mongrel. onna beach, chasing waves. watching nigs eat icecream whilst basking in the african-like sun, no sun lotion, just oil..they don't burn remember
better try resting the cranium back on the pillow now
night
morning
evening
whatever xooo

'You look really Indian with your hat like that'

soo
3am
enjoyed my evening with lauren ricky kieran and neal
came back to find i'd been locked out and no signal no ring
so had to ring the doorbell= woken dog, pissed off dad eyes like a chink, and mum all looking a little worse for wear.
but it's ok i got in
least I hadn't forgot my keys this time, couldn't be blamed
aparantly they heard me come in at 12.
yeah couurse, just locked myself out
anyway let's home sleep will arrive! no sleeepy because I indulged in a little, only a little vodka
niight.
well night time for me will be tommorow morning
but still.
xo

.

FEAR

too awake
checked my favourite one was sleeping,,,
still alive
my minds racing
:(

no sleeper
sleeper+alcohol = comar
needing some company
night.
all sleep well
WHAT. you're all already asleep.

Lonely.

I got too drunk. Again, No-one stops me, more of an encouragment...thankyou..rosies's dead.

No.Fuck you, yes I am fucked.

Do the words still HAUNT you...

Sat up till about 4am watching that shit film arachnaphobia. enough to make anyone WANT to actually get a pet tarantula
not that i would, don't see the point
would quite like a glass of wine though
no appetite
just a nice wine
although wine's not the alcohol of choice
finally knocked out around 7am (thankyou sleepy pill)
to be informed by the hound, just a meer hour later, that it was time to rise
like jesus
yeah.
anyway, more things to do haha.
hoping to see my best friend tonight.
good night, good morning, afternoon sir.......
with love from me to you <3

half full or half empty

Sitting around doing nooothing

sleepy

wasting endless hours on the internet

checking the clock for when people are back from work, means i'll actually have to get dressed, or at least change from pjama bottoms to joggers, at leeast.

just waiting around to go out

and get drunk, not remember, wake up..gradually..then do it all again

ohh

what a waste!

complete waste

lets get drunk then

fuck it

oh and

half fulls for optimists and half emptys for pessimists.

wasting time zzz

in hindsight..

The saddest songs, I'm feeling blue, wind swept smiles, I'm still missing you

The sort of days you wish you were even more alone

It's hard to find hope when science has killed God

It's hard to feel when you're in love with love itself

It's hard to cope when someone else cries out for you

It's hard to want the truth when it's all we ask for..

who could ever tire of this

Some people feel like they don't deserve love. They walk away quietly into empty spaces, trying to close the gaps of the past.

Hello blog world

Thought I'd make one of these, seeing as my wonderufl friend rosie recently posted a lovely blog about me on here and it inspired me.

I can hardly sleep and my minds most racing/alive at these hours so I guess this would be good for me..

so, anyway, speak soon. i'm off to watch my favourite man frank gallagher's antics on channel 4.

maybe I'll be back later

over and out.